This Southern Faggot's Blog

May 31, 2009, 2:43 pm
Filed under: my head hurts.

Tonight was a very bad night.


Duck Duck Goose… No Geese Here!
May 25, 2009, 9:30 pm
Filed under: Nothing Terribly Important

It’s baby duck season at the park near my house and all I want to do is sit and watch them all day.

IMG_0149Instead, I am sitting in my house and I am finding it hard to leave the house to do anything. The problem is that I don’t have anything I need to do. I always need something to keep me busy or I think too much about things that I don’t want to, or shoulden’t.

guys with iphones
May 24, 2009, 5:37 am
Filed under: Things to notice | Tags: ,

Guys With Iphones

I find myself mostly confused and upset at this websites existance, but I also find myself drawn to it somehow. Most of the people I wish didn’t exist, but some of them are adorable and I want to hug them.

I got so sunburned today.
May 24, 2009, 5:32 am
Filed under: Faggot Rant | Tags: , , , ,

As of recently, talking to my roomate/kind-of-best-friend about anything has become incredibly frustrating. I don’t really know what to do about it, because I need someone to talk to about all the fucked up shit that happens around here, but he just dosen’t get it. I got kicked out of our local bear bar a few months ago (they never told me why, though its pretty clear) and he is still going. He claims that since he didn’t see whatever happened to incite me getting physically shoved out of the bar, he can’t “take sides”. For some reason he does not understand that seeing whatever happened does not matter, it’s the fact that they fucking shoved me out without telling me why. I am quickly finding it harder and harder to be around him and thats a really big problem.

Lots of the fucked up shit happens by faggot bar owners and his responce is always some form of “well they opened a business to make money, thats what they are there for”. Somehow folks don’t understand that these fucked up faggots are completly, wildly fucking over “their community” and no one god damn questions it. Around here, if you are a faggot bar owner, that automatically means you have some sort of (I wanted to use the word “crout” here, but I am pretty sure thats not the right word at all. What am i thinking of?) and folks refuse to hold them god damned accountable for their classist, racist, transphobic and agist policies. Folks have been so ingraned to not question these fucks that anyone who does question them is automatically “not doing whats right for the community”.

Community is starting to be my new least favorite word.Even more than ho-mo-sex-u-al. But no wonder everyone loves it so much, what a powerful tool to use to exploit and use people!

Side note:

Straight hipsters are the worst. It often feels like they only exist to tease me.

Amerikkkan Idol
May 21, 2009, 3:56 pm
Filed under: Faggot Rant, my head hurts. | Tags: , ,

Now that the flood of facebook status updates are over about who won Amerikkkan Idol, I can safely say these two are my favorite.

Brandon: Again, the Judges made a correct choice and the citizens fucked it up! I’m rushing the streets to protest the win of Kris Allen as I did the passage of Prop 8!

Tom: I don’t believe we were that surprised… Homophobia always raises it ugly, common head. It appears only the closeted homosexuals win in this day and age.

Offensive Sex
May 21, 2009, 3:50 pm
Filed under: Faggot Rant | Tags: , ,

“Sex offenders forced to live under Miami bridge”.

“sex offender” laws are so completely fucked up its mind blowing.

I think that its interesting that the two people they talked to, were “sex offenders” for merely exposing themselves to teenagers. I would like to believe that their would be a public outcry for the reform of “sex offender” laws if people knew that a lot of people had that slapped on them for really, really basic things, but I honestly don’t think their would be. It’s amazing how quickly society has trained people to automatically shut down right when they hear the term “sex offender”.

I was just searched through 100 random records for “sex offenders” in my area and 63 of the people are people of color.

This number is clearly outrageously disproportionate, it is not surprising at all considering how the prison system works. What IS surprising is that the more I thought about this, I realized that out of all those tv shows that I have seen about “sex offenders”, I have never seen a story done on a “Sex offender” of color. I googled “sex offender” in the image search and didn’t find a picture of a person of color until the 5th page.

But that seems like the opposite of how the media would want to portray “sex offenders”. Hm.

I want it

I want to go dancing. Or maybe I just want to BE dancing. Dance parties alone in the living room are only fun for a while.

I haven’t had a crush in a while. Crushes are funny like that. When I have them, I hate them and what they do to me. But when I don’t have one (or many), I feel empty and lonely.

Could it be that all I need to suppress my loneliness is the thought of company?

All I need is someone who will let me sing them to sleep. Someone who knows the songs I am singing, who already has a relationship with that song/album.

But I don’t have any crushes right now, but also don’t feel lonely. I feel like I should be lonley, wanting company. I don’t have any inclination to be around anyone, not even my (few) friends, which is becoming a problem.