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My back aches a lot
December 24, 2009, 5:55 am
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I wish small talk mattered. I wish that when people asked me what I do with my day, or what I do to entertain myself, they actually cared. I wish that they were expecting me to open myself up and pour everything out, letting them see and dissect everything that is living inside me. But, I know this isn’t what they want, so it always catches me off guard. Um, I don’t know, I sit around and read. Thats… mostly it.

I want people to get it, that when I say “I need to go sit and read”, I am not using the word ‘need’ lightly. No one understands that it is a need, it’s the only thing that keeps me going. It’s what keeps me in communication with people outside of this place. It’s the only thing that lets me know that everyone in the world isn’t a drunk asshole.

It is the end of December and it is raining, not snowing and very warm outside. I don’t know what to do with any of these things


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I try not to ask people what they do, or other inane small talk questions. I like to know how people like to spend their time. What moves them through the day, keeps them up at night, or wakes them in the morning?

Really, it’s not the what I’m interested in, but the why.

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