This Southern Faggot's Blog

We shake our heads
March 28, 2010, 6:47 pm
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I have strep throat right now. It is amazing how much something that is happening in your throat, can effect the rest of your body.

Everything feels like so much right now. Smells are all really overpowering and nothing tastes right. I am trying to read “The Revolution Starts at Home” and I just don’t know if I have the energy to do that right now. It’s not overwhelming in the way that it becomes inaccessible to me, it’s just so much. But I am really excited about taking a nap and finishing it (thanks for the recommend, Mattilda!)

The past few days have been chilly and dreary. What a good time to be sick, I am kind of glad I have had an excuse to stay inside and not have to deal with all of that.


springtime is the season
March 18, 2010, 1:19 am
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Right now, my summer looks like this.

I can either live in a house with a roommate and turn tricks this summer, to pay that rent.


I can live in a tent, in the woods behind my friends house. I would not have to pay rent, only part of utilities. This would completely destroy any chance of doing in calls, which is what all of my clients are.

But how much would I actually miss turning tricks?

If I lived in a house, I would only be living there to turn tricks. But I would be turning tricks, to pay the rent for the house, which seems really silly (oh the cycle of capitalism).

I am almost certain I have made up my mind about living in the woods.

I mean, calling it “the woods” most defiantly makes it sound more glamorous than it would really be. “The woody area of the back yard of a punk house” would be a better way to describe it.

Anyway, I think I would enjoy it most of the time and when I didn’t enjoy it, I don’t think I would necessarily hate it. I mean, I generally enjoy nature and I can REALLY enjoy nature if it means cutting my monthly expenses by $400+. Not having a physical address would also make it much easier to just pack up on a whim and do the traveling I feel I have to do, to make it to next fall.

Yes, I think I will do it.

crustian kids
March 13, 2010, 7:09 am
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Tonight, after trying to explain to a straight dude where his prostate was and then realizing that he didn’t even know it was in his asshole, his band played and it turns out they are a christian (crustian?) punk band. They sing about monogamy and having sex with women.

You know those nights, where things that seem like a big deal to you happen, but you know you could not talk to anyone around you about it, because it would seem like a ‘small deal’ to anyone else? I fucking hate being in that situation.

What a strange fucking night.

Also, I found out tonight that Lady Gaga is the same age as me. That is really upsetting, for some reason.

Oh honey, it’s so nice outside!
March 12, 2010, 6:06 pm
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Honey, when summer rolls around and the booty shorts come out, I own downtown.

Walking home from the bakery this morning, I realized that this is what I really, truly, love about summer. The feeling of power, the knowledge that regardless of gender, sexuality, age, race, economic status, I know that when I walk by, I am what everyone is looking at. I love it.

In related news, I dyed my favorite pair of shorts fuchsia. I think the bleach completely fucked them up and they will fall apart soon, but they will be fabulous while they last.

omg, this book

I just picked up “Indecent: How I Make It and Fake It as a Girl for Hire” and it is terribly good. I have not finished it, but so far it has been one of the best hooker reads I have ever found, that wasn’t an anthology.


I just turned the best trick, of my entire life.

He is an older dude, really nice, not weird smelling and really furry, which is such a nice change. We just made out for a long time and I came on his chest and thats all he wanted. After that we rolled around and we talked about turning tricks in this town. He apparently used to be a hustler as well, in the 70’s, in the town that I live in, which is really amazing. And I got an awesome tip, super!

Normally tricks leave my house and I feel drained. I either just want to take a nap, or go spray something in my room that will make their smell go away. But I am fine with whatever smell is in my room right now and all I want to do is go run through the park. I am going to go see what the ducks are doing.

What a fabulous day!

Nap time
March 7, 2010, 7:43 am
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Naps are the only way that I will ever get anything done this spring/summer. That is the only way I will have the energy to keep working on things until 2. I wake up with the sun, regardless of how tired I am, which is kind of awful.

I wish that while napping, I didn’t feel like I am wasting the day away. Sure, daylight is great, but night time is the only time I can get stuff done.. and anyway, thats when everyone I know is awake.

Maybe I just need to schedule a nap into my day and force myself to nap, regardless of how much I feel like I need it

Today was the first day day of walking around outside without shoes.

The warm asphalt and broken glass against my feet.

I’m home again.