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Did I mention, that I moved?
August 31, 2010, 9:30 pm
Filed under: mom, People I wish I could forget, The new hose | Tags: , ,

My fucking mother called again today.

She does not understand why I get upset, when she asks for my opinion and then after I give it, she tells me I am wrong.

I told her I will never be able to think of her as ‘my mother’ and she wanted to know what she could do to fix that. For some reason, my answer of “You can’t fix that. You can’t undo my entire childhood” just was not enough for her.

I made it pretty clear that I don’t have the time, energy or motivation to put into a conversation that would be necessary to even scratch the surface of our fucked up relationship. That isn’t enough for her. If I am critiquing our relationship, she wants me to be able to tell her exactly what is wrong and what she can do to fix it.

I don’t have the answers. Maybe when I was 16 and still cared about her, I could have sat down and worked out my thoughts.

But that was a long time ago.

On a more exciting note, I finally got a sewing machine and have been working on blackout curtains all day. I am super excited about them.


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Girl, I love love that zine shelf, oh my…

And yes, yay for blackout curtains — in my next apartment, I must have blackout curtains…

And, “She does not understand why I get upset, when she asks for my opinion and then after I give it, she tells me I am wrong.” So typical — what a disaster!

Love love love —
mattilda

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